I was excited 10yrs ago and knew that it would be the best day of my life. I would travel with my husband and friends to either Paris, France or some beautiful island in Africa. The future was becoming dim even in that year as it ended with a divorce. Yes, I lived ALL of my thirties single! Ha and WELCOME to 40!
As, I woke on March 12, 2019, I was already perplexed about turning 40yrs old. There are so many thoughts, emotions, and metrics, that consume you when turning a year older. However, #OverTheHill has arrived and its just another day. Oh, I had BIG plans in my head for a long time about My 40th Birthday. My plans were so grand for the BIG 40, I chose to host a dinner at 39yrs old and advised friends and family in attendance "you may not see me next year because I will be traveling solo". This was the reality since I have been in "Do Monica Mode" (another story for another day) for so many years. Nevertheless, I woke up, thanked God loudly for another day and year then cried. I was in my bed alone.... no kids, no spouse, no family, just moi. Yes, I know God is real! Real in my soul! You can't make me doubt Him, know to much about Him, lol. The human aspect of another birthday and not where you want to be in life spiritually or naturally because of you, hmmmm let that sink in for another day or so. Reality is a beast especially when you come off a high of any kind. I had spent the weekend before my 40th t
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alking about the Gospel, dining and laughing with friends, and a spectacular worship. Oh what joy as the morning of my 40th continued my Private Chef for a phenomenal, quaint brunch had to cancel for reasons we could not control, I was determined to make it through the day, smiling my way through as I always, gracefully manage to do. Let's just say by the end of March 12, 2019, I had smiled because people were willing to share in a moment like no other. Sitting at the office earlier that day was not the best and then to be home that evening and early made me feel some kind of way. It was in those moments too much came to my watery eyes yet again and I finally decided to voice these things in a public format. Who knows I may help someone because the journey of a "spoiled daddy's girl" has not been how the books, movies, and social sites say it should be lived. Words for days, stories for hours, coffee mugs are a must because a book will come forth! March 12, 2019, gave me a different zeal for something and someone greater. I look forward to sharing the #AlwaysGraceful experience because I have seen the fruit of its labor whether I like it or not.
#40HasArrived oh and well. Get out of the past and move on with the things I have to birth is a must. There is so much to be done and the fact that God will allow it is what continues to hold me when I think I am alone. Still not a preacher (insider) but I did accept my teaching, praying, and mentoring ministry to step it up a notch. I have so many folks counting on me to do what I do daily.............. Inspire, Be Graceful, Show Grace, and Gracefully Execute the way God will have us to do and not society. Day like no other started with sad tears and ended with happy, promising tears. This journey I am officially inviting you on will allow us to coast through gracefully, loving life, and living Godly balanced!
Thank you all for reading thus far!
Beautiful sis! Love your transparency!!! 💕
I am definitely GRATEFUL to have met you. I didn't know & wouldn't expect you to have cried so many tears since we've met. YOU ALWAYS HOLD THINGS TOGETHER SOOOO GRACEFULLY! I am glad you are releasing & allowing God to elevate you because it definitely helps me & so many others...I am looking forward to THIS journey with you
Love Porsha
I love you! No matter what, you are always graceful and I am grateful to have you in my life!